I just crawled into my bed and felt the need to journal this small, but important moment I just had. To start off, I will give you a quick insight into the kind of day I had today…
Today was my first, official day of my Thanksgiving vacation from work and I spent it at the Dentist, which of course, is nobody’s ideal day off. To make it worse, it was the first time ever getting a fill done so I did not know what to expect. I ended up having a massive panic attack after getting a nerve block injection to numb my mouth because I was so freaked out my mouth, tongue and throat became numb! (I have a weird anxiety already with my throat and always think my throat is closing during panic attacks so the numbness was really no good for me lol) This was also the first time I had a bad panic attack in probably a year. I was able to get through it by 1. telling myself to stop being a giant baby and 2. started doing Reiki on myself (you can do this in your head so nobody even has to know you’re doing it) & did some deep breathing to help relax me. (side note: I will write blogs diving into what Reiki is all about as well as ways to cope with anxiety as I am very familiar with it!) I was still anxious throughout the entire procedure, but my dentist and dental assistant were very helpful and tried calming me down. After my appointment was over, I drove home and had already planned on cooking chicken parmesan with pasta and garlic bread-yum!( I am half Italian and this is my FAVORITE meal!) Unfortunately for me though, I did not even think about my mouth and throat being numb for hours after this whole procedure so I wouldn’t be able to eat it right away. The nerve block ended up taking about 4 hours to fully wear off, so I ended up getting a huge headache since I hadn’t eaten lunch and my filling was close to a nerve causing even more pain. By the time my husband came home after work, I was hungry, irritable and had a horrible headache.
I am done with my negative rant now, but I just felt like it was important to paint you guys a picture of my day to fully grasp why I am writing this. After my husband and I finally sat down and ate this delicious meal, we relaxed on our couch with our dog and watched a movie on Netflix. (We watched a movie called Freaks btw which ended up being pretty good and very suspenseful if you’re looking for a good Netflix movie) After the movie ended, my husband fell asleep on me which is actually a miracle because he usually falls asleep during the movie lol and I was still a little frustrated that he had fallen asleep. I have no idea why I have not gotten used to him falling asleep on me after 8 years, but I still get frustrated sometimes for no reason other than I don’t get to see him much and want to hang out with him when we are together. However, to my surprise, my frustration quickly turned into gratification. I found myself lying on my couch and in one arm I had my husband sleeping on me and in my other arm was my dog sleeping on me. And at that very moment, I just paused, took my attention off the TV and felt a wave of gratification naturally come over me as if I had no control over it. I looked around and thought to myself, wow, I am so lucky, I’m safe in my warm home, just had a nice, big meal with my husband, had the loves of my life sound asleep on me with a nice, warm fire and realized I used to dream of this when I was younger and here I finally am living it.
I was so focused on all the minor “inconveniences” throughout the day, like we all get wrapped up in so frequently, it makes us forget about the small, precious moments in our lives. The most important moments in our lives. The simple pleasures of just being with our families, feeling safe and full after eating delicious meals, feeling cozy by a warm fire etc.
These seemingly “insignificant” moments are the real backbone of what life is all about. Tonight I realized I need to take what I like to call a “gratification pause” every single day, feeling gratitude for these moments until it becomes a habit.
Every one of us has something in our lives we can be grateful for. The more we focus on these things and less on the negative, the better we’re all going to feel. There are aspects of each of our lives that others would love to have and we need to slow down, pause for a moment and appreciate our lives more. I put this blog in The Law of Attraction category because I believe the feeling of being grateful is the #1 secret in allowing The Law of Attraction to work for you. I will explain further in another blog post, stay tuned 🙂
