I’ve got to admit something.
I’ve been off track. For how long? Who knows. Maybe all semester, maybe it’s only been a few weeks. For me it feels like forever!
Off track in what way? Off track in my self-care (meditation, yoga, working out, journaling, being grateful, praying, juicing, etc.)
I’ve had days where I ate nothing but bagels, pasta, and chocolate (yummy, but not good for my mood.) I’ve been off track in my meditation — almost an entire week going by without taking a full 10-20 minutes to meditate. That’s unheard of for me! Off track with my scheduling, bed time, and passion for life. What does that mean? I revert back to a cranky, overly-emotional, feisty little Katie.
Unfortunately, my nature is not to be lovely and wonderful to be around. I can tend to get kind of aggressive and can be a little whine-y, and without an excellent self-care routine, I can slip into some of those old, nasty habits. When I start to notice myself losing my temper, gossiping, or eating like total crap, the first thing I look at is my self-care.
How early am I going to bed? How long am I sleeping?
Am I being productive, or wasting away the hours of the day?
Am I being kind to myself? Am I being compassionate towards others?
Am I meditating once, twice, three times a day?
Have I done yoga today?
When’s the last time I juiced, cooked a super healthy meal, or drank a smoothie?
Who am I surrounding myself with? Are they lifting me up or dragging me down?
Self-care isn’t selfish; Self-Care is the most selfless act of love for yourself AND for others. I couldn’t write this blog, be a good friend/daughter/sister, or follow my dreams without taking excellent care of my mind and body. When i’m on point with all these things, I am naturally loving, compassionate, patient, and wonderful to be around. I’m happy, free, and totally flowing with all the good in the Universe. When I start to notice i’m not any of those things, I know i’ve got to step it up in the self-love department.
So, what’s the miracle of falling off track? It’s that you hit a point where BAM! you wake up. For me, it was a moment after arriving in New York where I totally lost my cool and was in an awful mood the first day. I looked at a city that would usually inspire me and intrigue me and found I was totally uninterested – even feeling cold – toward the city and this experience. I knew something was up, so I meditated, journaled, and the sign was clear: clean up your self-care, girl. You’ve gotta put yourself first in order to be able to follow your dreams, inspire/be inspired, create, and feel loving/loved.
So here we are. A semester of half-assed self-care later, and i’m realizing i’ve got to step it up. I’m meditating every morning and night for 10-20 minutes, making sleep a big priority, and moving my body every single day.
What’s your self – care like? How could it be better? Check out the areas in your life you want to improve, and see if all you’re missing is a little TLC for yourself.
Lots of love,